During this time, I was under serious financial pressure, serious enough that it threatened my ability to sustain my role as a father. I was also struggling to find a path to Jewel. In part as a way of uniting these concerns, I sketched two movie concepts. Perhaps more importantly to our relationship, these efforts gave us the means to move our spiritual challenges into another context, and to experience the creative potential of our union.
It would be diversionary to elaborate the movie concepts in detail here. Instead, I focus on the process, and the emotions that accompanied it.