Control

The next person that says I'm a control freak - I'm gonna kill him.

I hope that makes you laugh. I keep on telling people that you can't control love. But it's the old prime mover problem: if they don't have control, somebody else must have. I wish it were I. Look at me: lost my business, lost my house, separated from my children, lost the woman I love.

The only way "control freak" applies is with the qualification "masochistic".